Isn't that ironic?

Please bear in mind all characters are fictional and based on the blogger's active imaginations...

Sarah owns a wedding planning company - "Fairy Tales Wedding" and she needs to hire PR staff to help her in promoting her business. So a number of potential candidates came for interview and Sarah decided she wanted to take this particular candidate; let's call him Zack, because she believes he can perform based on his convicing interview. But, there's a catch here, Zack came with some medical history.

Anyway, as times goes by, words gets around that the operating manager; we named him Mike can't see eye to eye with Zack. Reason being, according to Mike, Zack was not able to perform according to what is expected of him. However according to Zack, their disagrements are getting personal. Mike claimed that he had several discussions with Zack and infact send him a love letter in hoping that something good will come out of it. So it's Mike's words against Zack's yada yada and the tension continues until...

Mike decided to bring this matter to Sarah, the CEO.

Going to CEO off course you'll expect a sound decision or at least a fair recommendation from Sarah. So, imagine to Mike's horror when he told Sarah his predicament, Sarah just told him off that there is nothing he can do, because Zack is mentally retarded!" OMG! How could she said that, Mike couldn't believe it, especially when it comes right from Sarah's mouth, the CEO!

In the end, I find the whole scenario so messed up because if Sarah knows from the beginning about his medical history then how dare she called Zack mentally retarded when she was the one who hired him in the first place, isn't that ironic, don't you think? And how can you simply call someone mentally retarded or spastic? That's a first degree insult!

Yes, perhaps he does has medical history but that doesn't entitled him to be called retarded, right? At the same time it's not fair also for Mike because all this while he has no idea that Zack has medical history. So now that Mike knows this, what his gonna do? Do he trys his best to be professional and burnt grudges against Zack which means he will find his way to make things work for both of them, or plan more personal attacks to Zack?

Long Overdue Tag

This was a long overdue tag, tagged by Rina dear, alas better late than never...so, here I am blogging my first tag...

What were you doing 5 years ago?

Back in 2004, I was working with one of Sabah's leading private college then in 2006 I left this college to join current organisation. Oh! did I tell you that this was the year we started courting each other? Oh, no let me rephrased that, this was the year he started courting me...hahaha...that's more like it :D

What were the 5 things on your to do list today?

1. To bank in some cash to my ASW2020 - DONE
2. To draft 3 short articles for office bulletin - Still proscatinating
3. To complete watching Entourage Season 3 Part 1 - So looking forward to watch this tonight. Huhu!
4. To finish reading "Shopaholic -Ties The Knot" - Will do this before I go to sleep to night
5. To choose what I want to wear for our organisation's Annual Dinner tomorrow - I'm stuck here, I don't know what to wear. Sigh.

Now I'm suppose to tag to others right? Well, anyone reading...feel free to do this tag :-)

The Twilight Saga : New Moon

Jacob is so hot! (photo credit to runacity at flicker.com)

I've been busy I think since forever, ever since Raya Puasa I've been working non-stop till I forgot when was the last time I had weekends! Anyway, now that I'm on a mini break, baru boleh tarik nafas lega. So what happened was, I think one week ago I finally get the chance to watch Twilight at HBO. Now don't laugh, I know I am so ketinggalan! Nah, sekali tengok I'm hooked. No wonderlah I've been hearing the buzz about this Edward Cullen since last year. Now I know why! I never thought Vampires can be so cool!Haha

So last night we went to watch The Twilight: New Moon. Frankly speaking, I find that Twilight was much better than The New Moon, I don't know why I just feel something is missing here in this sequel, maybe it's because of different director? Or perhaps I should read the book? Another thing, I hope for the following sequel, Dakota Fanning's role will expanded...she's such a talented young girl!

Anyway, for those who hasn't watch this, it's still worth watching :-)

Diamonds are forever

See that big whole in the middle?

Yesterday, while I was stuck in my car near MUIS area, I saw something odd on my left fingers (at that time both hands were on steering) I just realized that the diamond on my wedding ring slipped. I don't know what happen, in the first place how could that happen? I thought diamond don't just slip right? Imagine my horror masa tu? Kelam kabut I called my sister and bff. I feel macam mau tercabut nyawa, ok? I can't concentrate my driving. Siap driving sambil mms this photo to my sister, bff and colleague@gurlfriend.

The first thing that popped up on my mind was, my hubby is going to kill me! Di tambah lagi dengan my sister said, maybe it's a bad sign? oh no! I terus freak out! Tambah serabutlah my head masa tu. Initially, I was so worried of what will my hubby's reaction when I tell him this piece of bad news. Dalam hati, habislah I'm deadmeat after all the money that he spent on this wedding ring? I even had the thought of going back to TOMEI and buy a new diamond with the same design and just replace it. My hubby wouldn't know, would he?

Despite cover-up plan that I have in mind, at that particular point of time, deep inside me, it feels like a big stab to my heart when I saw that big whole in the middle because this ring means a lot to me. It's my wedding ring and the sentimental value that comes with this ring is totally in describable. For a moment I felt lost. I never thought that when the diamond slipped, only then it makes me realized how much this ring means to me.

Come to think of it, sometimes we tend to take things for granted. Only when we lost it or it's gone, barulah kecarian, barulah appreciate, barulah tersedar. Sometimes it's just too late but if you are lucky you may get the chance to make amends or show that this thing/person means something to you. In my case, I was lucky because that diamond slipped inside my handbag. Thank God! Alhamdullilah. Next time , I might not be this lucky.

Later that evening, I did tell my hubby the truth. Lucky me again, he wasn't angry or mad at me but I am not suprised, knowing he is very calm and collected (well, he is totally opposite of me!maybe that's why we are together :-D). In fact he was cool about it. Tapi part yang paling I suka dengar was, when he said "Maybe this ring need another ring to kasih kawan dia" Hehehe...this part, me likey!

Moral of the story, don't take things for granted and for now don't buy any jewellery from TOMEI until I get a good explanation how could this happened. After all, when you spent thousands, off course you expect high quality workmanship.

I'm sorry

I must admit that "I'm sorry" is not a popular vocabulary in my dictionary. Due to my stubborness or ketubalan it's so difficult to say "I'm sorry" even tough at times I knew that I was wrong but today, I said the dreadful phrase "I'm sorry" to somebody dear to me after a heated argument. Well actually, I wouldn't conclude it as a heated argument but let's just dramatize the whole situation given at that time I was on my first day of the month where Auntie Rose paid a visit (peeps, that's one of the beauty of being a lady because you can always blame it on your imbalanced hormones when that time of the month arrives). :-)

It all started with a phone call from a dear friend, he was informing me that my big boss wanted me to assist him for one dinner event. I remembered I was upset when he said that he knows that I don't work during weekend and it was my boss who asked me to work for that particular dinner not him. I terus jadi emo masa tu. What upset me more was, I was already planning to assist him because I knew he needed any extra help he could get. In fact I already rescheduled my Saturday night appointment so I can help him with the event.

Along the way, I don't know what happened, we ended yelling at each other. The next thing I know, he hung up the phone just like that. Imagine my temper at that time, off course berderau jugalah darahkan!

After my temper subsided, I made the three attempts to call him back because I just want to settle all this mess or whatever you may call it. My phone calls were ignored. Maybe he was still pissed, ok fine. Finally, when I managed to talk to him, I told him "I'm sorry" and I really meant it. At that time, I was already calm so I explained to him gently what was my intention (niat sebenar - nawaitu) in the first place. After that, he told his side of the story, now I know why he was pissed earlier. I should have listened instead of just hearing. Well, temper flares in any upcoming event, right?

What amazes me was even though it's so difficult for me to say the phrase "I'm sorry" because I feel that I didn't do anything wrong but I did it and you know what? I am relieved that I made the first move to say "I'm sorry". The reason was simple, I just don't want to fight and I don't want to let all these negative vibes get into me.

You know what? most importantly, I said I am sorry because he is a dear friend of mine. I treasure our friendship. If he is reading this (which I doubt so), I hope he knows how I value our friendship. Kalau orang lain jangan haraplah I would make the first step! I bet those who knows me very well must be suprised with this entry knowing that I can be quiet self-centered.

At the end of the day, it doesn't matter who is right or who is wrong. To me what matter most is, who take the first step to make things better, right peeps?

Imitation is the best form of flattery

For illustration purposes only

I love perfumes and I collect perfumes. I think those who are close to me know this. My love for perfume goes to the extent that I have specific perfumes for certain occasions. For instance, during office hours I use perfume that is light and pleasant but for special occasions I use strong and intense perfume. If I go for outdoor activities I go for something fresh. Then I have perfume that I reserve for that special dinner. But I have a problem here. Whenever, I found out somebody is using the same perfume as mine, I change to another perfume. I don't want to use the same perfume anymore. Then again, off course along the line my perfume selection clashes with others right? It can't be helped. Ok fine.

So, recently (not quite recent) some friends of mine commented that they like my perfume. Off course I'm flattered. The next thing I know, they bought the same perfume. Ok fine, I said to myself. I can get a new perfume. This time around I chose something that is totally different. Something that I've wanted for so long. I bought it. I used it on special occasions. I really like this particular perfume. Even my family told me that this is me. I love this perfumes and I know nobody close to me use this particular perfume. I'm contented. I found my perfume. I found my scent.

I thought it's gonna be fairy tale ending for me (yes, by now you can call me perfume fanatic, it's fine by me :-)). For all I know, I found out that someone that I know just bought the same perfume. What a coincidence. Just when I was about to claimed this as MY PERFUME somebody else is using it too! I freak out! How could that be? It's been two days and I can't stop thinking about it. I talked about it to my hubby, my bff and my sister. I was heartbroken (nah, correction I am still heartbroken). How could this happen to me? I know, I'm being overly dramatic here but I can't help it. Oh! maybe you won't understand, it's okay. I just need to blog about this in hoping that it will cool me down. Crazy isn't it?

My bff told me that this time around when I found another perfume that I like, make sure I don't tell a single soul what I'm wearing. Keep them guessing. My sole consolation was, when my sister jokingly told me "Imitation is the best form of flattery". I'll take that as a compliment :-)

Now, I just have to find another new perfume. Wish me luck!

The Ugly Truth

This was one of the scene that I like!

I went to watch this movie with hubby last night with no expectation at all, I know it's a romantic comedy movie but I have no idea what the story is all about. Initially, I was a bit sleepy after buka puasa taulah perut sudah kekenyangan but the moment I watch this movie, I was hooked from the beginning until the end. Gerard Butler such a good actor! As of Katherine Heighl? She's okaylah...

To me, I think the movie is hilarious!!! Hubby and I laughed throughout the show, luckily ngak kena halau dari panggung. Anyway, if you like "He's not that into you" then I think you would like this movie. I'm thinking of watching this movie again, maybe this time around I'll bring my bro along, I'm sure he likes it!

So tunggu apalagi, go go go watch this movie!

This conversation took place...

Continuation of yesterday's entry. I went to the bank accompanied by my hubby, well actually he's the designated chaffeur. So I went to the bank...dengan lafaz Bismillahirahmannirahim; and I said to myself...be cool. Then, I saw one familiar face, I approached her...it turns out to be that she was my student back then. Rozilydia Hj. Jaafar namanya, orang Tawau juga...she was also my junior when I was in SM. St. Patrick back then.

Luckily she was there, with her help, I now have proof that I have make the payment to the right account. I called the hotel to clarify again. Then hotel told me that, their re-checked their bank statement and yes, apparently they received my payment. Thank God! Nasib baik I jumpa Lydia, she made the whole things easier! Thanks dear! Now, I just wait for the hotel to issue the receipt so I can then claim reimbursement from my office.

Anyway, after that I brought my hubby to CP (Centre Point) because I want to get something to munch munch (uzur yer!). I told him, I don't know what to eat...I want 1901 hotdog, double cheese burger, sandwich, hmm...bun and I want Cafe Mocha Starbucks too! So, I'm stuck here...don't know what to eat. I can't be eating all, right? So as usual, hubby decided for me. He knows I love coffee so I should get a cuppa from Starbucks and he knows that I love cheese burger so he asked me to get that cheese burger. Then while waiting for the cheese burger at the counter, this conversation took place...

Me: I think I have a big problem...

Hubby: Yes, I know that long long time ago, in a galaxy far-far away

(music background: John Williams, Starwars)

Me: You do? Tell me then what's my problem?

Hubby: Is it something to do with being thrifty?

(add sarcasm secukup rasa; but then again it's like him talking to the Great Wall of China)

Me: No. That's not a problem for me.

Hubby: No?

Me: I just don't know what to choose, when it comes to deciding what to buy. That's my real problem. Haha

Hubby: Huhhhhhh?

(Silent thought :Contemplating the fate of the shopping universe of Darth Farrah)

Selamat Berbuka Puasa you'all. Mum's cooking is still the best. Till Then. See Ya!

What a bummer!

Last Saturday, I went to CIMB Cash Deposit, Jalan Sagunting to make payment for my outstanding hotel charges-Perkasa Hotel Keningau. Don't ask me why do I have to fork out my own money to pay for my outstation hotel charges. The reason was simply because I didn't inform our Admin Unit thus no LoU from them means I have to pay first, then claim later which is fine by me.

To cut the story short, I went there and join the long queue. Upon my turn, I click the account number, then the cash deposit display - PERKASA HOTEL. Confirmed account number, so I bank in RM120. Transaction successful. I waited for my receipt. Suddenly, the cash deposit machine ran out of paper. So no receipt we printed. At that point, I still remained cool. I called the hotel, I told them what happened. They assured me that should be no problem, they will check with the accounts department but I have to wait until the office opens today.

Just went I thought everything will be ok, then I received a phone call from the hotel. They told me their account statement did not show any deposit RM120 made from CIMBank, Jalan Sagunting at 10:30pm, 29th August 2009. So that means, I have to go to CIMBank, Jalan Sagunting and ask the bank where did my money go? Where at the same time I didn't have any receipt with me to proof that I've deposited the cash.

It's ok, tommorow I will go there and ask the bank nicely and gently. I just want to know where did the money go? Don't tell me I have to deposit another RM120 to the hotel?

Fyi, before I bank in my payment there was no warning on the screen stating that the machine was out of paper thus unable to print out payment receipt. Should the machine displayed the warning, I wouldn't stupidly bank in cash. What a bummer!

Happy birthday Rina dear :-)

Rina dear, thank you for all these years...thank you for being my friend for the past 18 year and counting. I wish you all the best things in life and more :-) Love you! So here goes...

A friend is a Treasure - Renee Duvall

A Friend is a Treasure
A friend is someone we turn to,
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure,
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives,
with beauty, joy and grace.
And make the world we live in,
a better and happier place.

P/s : I wanted to put our photos masa muda-muda dulu tapi belum scan lagi...dulu-dulu mana ada digital camera. So stay tune peeps!

All in the name of love

A close friend of mine told me that, he/she will fight all the way just to keep their relationship going eventhough at the expend of making the fool out of themselves. They don't care, just to prove their unconditional love. They even said that, they will not give-up eventhough their instinct is telling them that it's not going to work out, anyway.

This makes me wonder, the things that we do all in the name of love...is it worth it? I'm not saying they are fools in love, does the other person appreciates all the crazy things that they did for them? If the woman/man failed to see how my friends fight all the way just to show they care, then I think it's their lost.

Right now, I just hope and pray that the woman/man that my friends are fighting for is worth it after all. I hope this woman/man knows how much they means to my friends. If this woman/man sincerely love my friends, then they better stop hurting my friends.

I just cannot bear it when I see someone dear to me gets hurt over and over again. It breaks my heart.

Happy 1st wedding anniversary babe!

Picture credit to Jeffrey Wong (www.jeffreywong.wordpress.com)

Some said, the first year of marriage is the hardest, well babe you've survived the first year! So here I am wishing both of you a wonderful journey together as hubby and wifey. Amin. Love you both! Muahhh!

Today also is the first day of Ramadhan, Selamat Berpuasa...you it's only 12.45pm and I am all dressed up looking forward to go to Pasar Ramadhan :-)

Minor setback

Any official functions we have to adhere to the standard protocol as per standard practise depending on your organisations' protocol. Different functions require different set of protocols. That was part of my job - that is to make sure the right VIPs seat at the right seating. Little did I know, what I thought was the standard protocol was not seen as the right thing to do according to this particular so-called VIP. I was merely doing my job. If I had known that the seat that I offered her would have offended her social ranking and status, I would definitely find ways to rectify the whole thing. But then again, if I do that then, this will set a precedent for future functions.

Anyway, being in this line of work, I'm prepared to kena tukul and bambu, so I faced the music this morning. Being me, it 's not easy to just keep quiet when someone scolded you even though you know you were on the right side. No point arguing, when someone was so angry over petty matters like this (well, at least to me). I just kept my cool and remain calm. Deep down, God knows. I felt down, because I know I did the right thing. But not to worry, I'll bounce back, after all this is just minor setback.

I find it's unfair but the again, siapa juga si Farrah tu, kan??? It's just a job, it's not everything. There more to life than just work. I bet, some hypocrites in the office were already celebrating knowing the fact that Farrah just got screwed by someone "BIG" up there. For all you know, it'll be hot topics at the canteen. The next thing you know, cerita-cerita tu ditambah garam and gula untuk kasih sedap rasa but that's the least of my concern. That is beyond my control. At least I get free publicity, famous for the wrong reasons; macam Paris Hilton pulak!

To my BFF, thank you for being there, thank you for standing next to me, I really appreciate it...hey, you know who you are:-))

Charlie's Angels

Standing from left to right: Farrah, Farrah and Farrah

Farrah (English): Beautiful, Delightful, Joyful, Happiness and Ironsmith

Finally after working for current organization for the past three years, I was sent to attend a course on Event Management. Pheww! what a reward. Thank you, boss. The course was interesting and it has provided me with in-depth knowledge on event management skills which are totally relevant to my current work. Not only that, I get to meet the people in the industry of event management.; such a cool and happening group of peoples! I had a great time, sampai ngak mau balik office, hahahaha! Anyway, the highlight of this course was, for the first time three Farrah's in one room, can u imagine? How often do you get this chance right? Yes, Farrah is such a common name; Fara, Farrah, Farah...but these three girls shared the same Farrah's name, bah! Apalagi, I've got to blog about this.

My worst nightmare has just begun

What more can I say? Please wake me up when this is over...sigh...

I'll be counting sheeps...

Photo credit: dkle [urf]

I've been away from office for the past one week, so tomorrow is my first day back to office. Well actually, since now it's already past midnite, then in 8 hours time I'll be in the office. I don't know why, I feel nervous going back to the office, maybe it's because it's my first long break since last March. I think I berdebar-debar since last Friday lagi...I hope everything will be ok. Jangan kena H1N1 sudahlah! Because one of the symptom is berdebar-debar....adeh!adeh!

In one week, a lot of things can happened...lagi-lagi I heard that the witch from culcutta is going to be our big boss, effective this Aug. Oh! I think my worst nightmare has just begun...

I can't sleep... to be honest, I am so not looking forward to office...and now I am having difficulties sleeping...bengkali lepas ni I'll be counting sheeps. I hope it works. Don't ask me to read , because I am not in the mood for reading. Big sigh. My only consolation is, I get to see my bff tomorrow. I bet, mesti banyak gossip ni!

XOXOXO, Gossip Girls!

For a change...

Earlier on, I chose black as my blog's background because I thought I wanted to write something deep and mysterious but lately I feel that black is to heavy for me...macam terlampau mysterious pulak. So, for a change I use white because at this moment I am feeling white and to me white represent transparency...

P/s : It's past 1 am and I still can't sleep, maybe the Cafe Latte that I had at Coffee Bean was too strong for me...I know I have to do some write up for office but I am so not in the mood...I should put procrastinating in my dictionary now. Like the say, old habit dies hard! haha!

Tuhan lebih sayangkan Yen (30 Julai 1977 - 17 Julai 2009)

Innalila hiwainalila hirojiun.

I received an sms from As this morning, she told me that a dear friend of mine, Yenilia Badrin has passed away this morning. No wonderlah I've been having strange feeling this week...Berdebar-berdebar...I rasa sangat terkilan sebab I didn't get to see her, bila balik Tawau mesti ngak sempat jumpa arwah. Rasa menyesal betul, lebih menyesal lagi sebab I didn't know she was sick.

If only I get to see her before she left. If only...

I pray that her family diberikan kekuatan untuk menghadapi ujian dari Allah S.W.T. Amin.

Al-Fatihah. Semoga rohnya dirahmati Allah S.W.T. Amin.

Have you ever...?

Teruskanlah - Agnes Monica

Pernahkah kau bicara tapi tak didengar

Tak dianggap sama sekali

Pernahkah kau tak salah tapi disalahkan

Tak diberi kesempatan

reff:

Kuhidup dengan siapa ku tak tahu kau siapa

Kau kekasih ku tapi orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja

teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku aku patung bagimu

Cinta bukan kebutuhanmu

back to reff

Kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu...

He has gone to another world

Remembering Michael Jackson
29 August 1958 - 25 June 2009

I couldn't believe that Michael Jackson has left us until I watched his Memorial Service on Astro.
Reality finally sink in, that he is gone forever.
There was only one Michael Jackson and he has left us.
There we lost another amazing talent.
I wonder, what is his soul are doing right now? Moonwalking?
Perhaps, for the first time he can walk freely and finally he is allowed to be left alone;
no more papparazi chasing a scope out of his life.
I hope he finds peace in his new world.
May his soul rest in peace. Amin.

He's a hottie!

I went to see Transformers : Revenge of the fallen. Kalau lelaki semua terpegun tengok how sexy and hot Megan Fox is, then for us ladies...at least I can speak for myself, I terpegun tengok Josh Duhamel...tanpa kelip mata, ok? He's a hottie...sexy oooh! His body...his look...wah, I'm drooling already! Hahaha...In fact, I noticed him since previous Transformers...

So ladies, sepa yang belum tengok Transformers...go go go watch! Cuma satu jak pesanan I, ada spoiler sikit...sebab ramai parents bawa their kids so tahan-tahan jaklah kalau tiba-tiba sampai scene bagus tiba-tiba ada baby merengek non-stop. That's what happened to us last night. Aiyayah!

Apparently, babies macam tau-tau jak tu scene bagus. Mau jak I marah, but then again maybe teda orang jaga babynya dirumahkan? Iyalah parents pun mo tengok wayang juga. Who knows in the future I pulak bawa my newborn baby p tengok wayang?:-)

I felt so alone

Absence makes the heart grow fonder...

After quite sometimes working, to be exact, the last time I took leave was in March! I finally managed to take three (3) days off. Those three days were fantastic! I had a great time recuperating (well, at least in my context) at home doing nothing and catching up with friends that I've abandoned for quite sometimes. Sorry mate, I've been extremely busy.

So today, I am back in the office with lots of recharged energy and full of positive anticipations. Instead, I felt strange today, for the first time I felt so alone despite the office is full with people. I can hear them sharing light moments and gossiping here and there after all it's Friday already. Nobody has the mood to work...everybody was already looking forward to weekend. And yet I felt so alone. My mind keeps wondering how do you know who's your friend? Can you say your officemate is your friend? Or they just have to get along with you because you work together?

At least for me, since we are colleagues, we have to put our differences aside and get things done, right? We are professionals at work. Even if you don't like this particular person, you still have to work together right? At the end of the day, even if you work together doesn't mean you have to friends but at least being civil to each other won't hurt.

Some people define colleagues as their friends. But to me, to be a friend it takes more than that. A true friend is someone you trust. A true friend hear you out. A true friend will be there for you. A true friend stands together with you, although they know sometimes you are not right . True friends protect each other. The list goes on, my question is, can you find a friend in your office? I FIND IT DIFFICULT. Maybe because it's hard for me to open up and trust people, that's just me.

Sometime I feel that the office are full of hypocrites. They say nice things in front of you but it's different story altogether when you are not around. Given choice, I would rather deal outright hostility rather than deal with sugar coated lies. Call me harsh, but you just know when you spotted a faker! It's all written on their face and body language never lies!

Then again, why should I make my mind miserable over things that are beyond my control? They are the one with problems, not me. I keep on telling myself that I must be true to myself because I am who I am. Then again, it's those things in life that you have no control over to begin with, that tends to annoy, tends to irritate the hell out of you! Still, I have to deal with them. I just hope over time things change for the better. Hmmm....nope, some people are just born bad genes. Opps! There I go again...

I'm still here

Just a note to tell you all that I'm still here, so many things to blog about but time is not my side. Sigh.
On another note, macamlah others wonder what happened to me?
Hehehe...perasan pulak yours truly, as if she's celebrity blogger! Haha...will update my blog soon:-)
Have a beautiful day! Cheers!

My daddy, my hero

It's a backdated post but I know it's never to late to tell the whole world that I love my daddy so much! From time to time, you get questions like this, "Which one are you closer with, your mum or you dad?" If people ask me this, I would tell them both; actually off course I am closer to my mum in a sense that I can talk to her about anything and everything but when it comes to seeking opinion or advise, I would definitely talk to my dad.

You see, if I told my friends that my parents are very open and understanding, they wouldn't understand...some would just roll their eyes and you can see the shock written all over on their face! Haha...when I said they being open, I mean very open ok? Let's not go further, those friends who knows my parents...I can imagine them nodding their heads when they read this entry.Haha!

I can list 1001 reasons on why my dad is my hero. I look up on him. I seek advise from him. I listen to what he got to say and knowing my stubbornest...the moment my dad slow talk to me terus I follow everything that he said. Off course, he spent a lot on me...hehehe, you know raising a daughter like me can be very expensive investment! And, I have yet to show positive return invesment! Haha...

A friend once told me that, once you are married you no longer need to ask permission from you father instead it's your hubby that you need to get clearance. I beg to differ, even now that I am married, I still think my dad's words are important, I can't help it. He's my hero, nobody can't beat that. After all that he's done to me, he raised me up to become what I am today. Thankfully, I turn out to be fine (wink-wink) . I am so proud to be have a father like him. Up to today, he's always there for me. Looking back...I still remember...

When I had my first accident in Tawau back in 1995. I called him. He was the one who settled everything for me,

When I had a miserable time with my ex-boss in KL back in 2002. I turned to him. It was him who gave me a new perspective,

When I went for my interview for my current post, It was him who coached me,

When my car insurance expired, change my tyre botak, fixed my car, paid my car installments. He covered everything for me eventhough I was already earning my own income!

When I go for my mini get away or vacations, he sponsored my trip and off course bagi duit lagi! Itu sudah kerja tu! Betul-betul spoilt!

You will be suprised, I can be very sensitive and emotional when it comes to my dad. In fact bergenang sudah mataku thinking about my dad, I can feel my teardrops falling while I'm typing this entry. I can't imagine if he's not around anymore. I don't know what will I do without him. I just hope that, Allah s.w.t panjangkan umur my dad so that I will be able to give back what he has given to me all these years, well at least some part of it. I hope when have enough rezeki, then I can send him to perform his Haj. Amin. Insya'Allah.

Yes, I am now someone's wifey but I am always my dad's daughter. I love you dad, very very much!Muahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Instead of getting a pat in the back, you get screwed!

Sometimes when you work hard and put so much effort into making an event a major success (to say the least, everything in order) The feeling of an achievement shattered into pieces just because of one bloody f**king phone call from an old mother f**ker. Mind my language, I'm bloody f**king pissed.

Then again, why should I be pissed, after all she is mentally handicapped (dulu, kini dan selamanya - credit UMNO baru)!

Deep down, I feel underappreciated and miserable. Fullstop. There must be a way to deal with this old mother f**ker.

Kemesraan

Suatu hari Dikala kita duduk ditepi pantai

Dan memandang ombak dilautan yang kian menepi

Burung camar terbang bermain diderunya air

Suara alam ini hangatkan jiwa kita

Sementara sinar surya perlahan mulai tenggelam

Suara gitarmu mengalunkan melodi tentang cinta

Ada hati membara erat bersatu

Getar seluruh jiwa tercurah saat itu

Kemesraan ini janganlah cepat berlalu

Kemesraan ini ingin kukenang selalu

Hatiku damai...jiwaku tentram disampingmu

Hatiku damai...jiwa ku tentram bersamamu

Last night I attended a kenduri doa selamat, so normally during kenduri we get to see friends and family, recites prayers and tahlil together. The part where reciting prayers and tahlil are the part that I like most because when we said our prayers, I can feel that Allah s.w.t is listening to us and all you can feel is peace, nothing else matters. Another part that I like is, makan time where food is everywhere. Lauk pauk jak mo 10 macam, lain lagi dessert, kuih-muih, kek, coffee and tea, air bandung and fruits...apa ngak kenyang macam ular sawa!

What I've just described is how a normal kenduri affairs are carried out but last night the host invited a group of anak yatim from Rumah Anak Yatim Islam Tawau. They came in to join us for the feast, ramai betul and meriah sangat! So, after the feast they performed few songs for us siap accompanied with keyboard organ lagi (please correct me if I'm wrong, ngamkah tu namanya?). Syioklah tengok dorang nyanyi walaupun ada sengau sikit and sumbang but that is besides the point. Then they sang their last song, which was "Kemesraan" made popular by Broery Romantika. Terus I rasa sangat sayu especially part chorus, "kemesraan ini janganlah cepatlah berlalu..." I felt like my heart is crying because knowing that we are so lucky to have our parents with us to see us grow up to become what we are today. You see, they were jovial and happy despite hadn't had the chance to experience parents' TLC.

Which makes me wonder, sometimes we take things for granted, thinking that our loved ones will always be there for us...but what if one day they are gone? I can't imagine how I am going live without my parents... God knows. I just hope, Allah s.w.t panjangkan umur mereka so I have the chance to give something back to them. Amin. No, it's not just money (macamana juga I want to return their endless investments with my reckless spending? wink-wink). Actually, it's the quality time that we spend with our parents, itu yang mahal tu...and off course TLC goes a long way...hey, did you tell your parents that you love them today? Did you ever say thank you to them? Hmm...better go and tell them (not through blog, fb or sms ya?) in person.

Toy soldiers

Pernah dengarkah lagu "Toy Soldiers"? I think this song was popular during my time in high school...anyway, you must be wondering why did I blog about this song. Right now in the office, I betul-betul rasa yang macam toy soldier sebab sekarang kami ada komando baru...:-) If you think I am stressed out because of this so called new commando in command, actually on the contrary I'm not. In fact, I find it funny or shall I said hilarious...luckily I have other neighbours@another toy soldiers yang gila-gila juga, so I think I'll do just fine!

Captured by Christian Bautista featuring Sitti

I was captured the moment we met
Carried away with every word you said
It's a mystery how you got to me
I fell in the spell of your charms
With your siren's smile you caught me off guard

Just one glance took away my breath
Then you drew me in with your tenderness
You captivate my soul, I'm enraptured
You knocked me out you locked me up
Stole my heart like a thief at love
Keep me here in your happy ever after
I'm captured

By the way just in case you care
I'm here to stay, I'm not going anywhere
I took a dive in your deep dark eyes
And I'm never comin' up for air
I lost myself in this bond that we share

One sweet kiss took away my breath
Then you drew me in with your tenderness
You captivate my soul, I'm enraptured
You knocked me out you locked up
Stole my heart like a thief at love
Hold me tight in your happy ever after

Now you've got the best of me
No one else could hold the key
I'm captured

Just one touch took away my breath
When you drew me in I could not resist
You captivate my soul, I'm enraptured
You knocked me out you locked me up
Stole my heart like a thief at love
Keep me here in your happy ever after
I'm captured...

Mother's love lasts a lifetime

My mum and I, fuyoo baju pun matching!

MIL and I, masih rock lagikan?

Since I have two mums now, we decided to celebrate mother's day with my mum on Saturday, that was 9th May then today we decided to spend time with my mother in law. So, last night the whole family went all the way to Gayang Seafood to have our family dinner . Don't ask me why we went to Gayang although it's wayyyy to far for our place:-).

Imagine during our drive there, which was quite a journey...each one of us were already planning our menu of what we want to eat...finally, after we reach there, we were shocked because the place was full with peoples; sampaikan kapten yang tukang ambil order pun terlari-lari, ikan dalam aquarium pun terlompat-lompat; mungkin ikan-ikan, ketam-ketam, lobster-lobster terkejut tengok ramai orang. I think kan ada ikan tu macam ngak rela dimakan kali!hahaha! Anyway, kami turun juga thinking that, it's not that bad. My parents when to get table while Ozzy and I waited for our turn to order near the ikan-ikan, ketam-ketam, lobster-lobster yang melompat-lompat. So, at that time I macam malaslah ramai betul orang, sure makan tak sedap because chef kelam-kabut and mesti order lambat sampai.

Still, I waited for the captain to take my order. Sekali u know what happened? Since they don't have enough staff, so after captain took order, the captain herself will get all items e.g ikan, ketam, udang and stuff then put it in a basin then send it to kitchen. So, while she was trying to sauk this ikan, dapatlah sekali bila angkat, ikan tu melompat then jatuh di simen. So, you know what happened next? Captain tu tendang jak ikan tu macam main futsal masuk balik dalam besen dia. Adudui...ikan tu mesti mati tak rela! So, that's it, I told my parents that we better go somewhere else because the place is to packed and most importantly, I dont my ikan nanti kena tendang-tendang macam bola futsal! Adeh, sakit perut nanti!So we went everywhere and all restaurants were packed with families, dasyat sungguh mother's day celebration ni!

I think that saturday night tu semua restaurant macam kena serang families! Last-last we settled down at Wagamama 1B. I know it's not up to mum's liking but, since semua restoran kena serang so I think this was the best place available. Anyway, 7 lawan 1 off course kena ikut majority kan? All in the name of demogracy. No worries, I will still bring the whole family for seafood dinner but tunggulah...kalau mo pigi pun biarlah time low season, baru nyaman makan, baru boleh sampai menjilat jari...

Today, Ozzy and I went for breakfast with my parents in law. Inilah, sekarang ada dua family so both side mesti jaga; both are equally important. After breakfast of shall I call it brunch, we went window shopping at Warisan Square...masa tu juga I see people everywhere, ada yang bawa kek, ada yang bawa popo@nenek jalan-jalan...sekali lagi, memang dahsyat mother's day ni!hehehe...

So, that's my adventure this weekend. I think I had a full but meaningful weekend. I am thankful that I am still here to celebrate mother's day with my mum and mother in law. God knows how can I live without her for she has always been there for me, she's always stand by me whenever I needed her. You see, with my mum, I can talk to her about anything and everything and no censorship at all because she is so open and understanding. I am so lucky that I have a mum like her. I love you mummy! Thanks for always there for me!Muaahhhhh!

As for my mother in law, dia memang cool! Sangat open and very caring too! love you too mum!

Oh, lagi to all my mummy bloggers:

1. Rina - You are a great mum! your family is so lucky to have you:-)
2. Ina - Ini fashionista mama! you rock! Teruskan bershopping:-)
3. As - Sentiasa maintain jak....cool! Bila mo tambah askar?
4. Ju - Congrat's, I hope you have a safte pregnancy...

Did I missed anybody? Alas, Happy Mother's Day!

Serene Beauty

These photos were taken from my room at Mount Kinabalu Heritage and Spa Resort, Kundasang. I just love the view from my room, it's so serene. You see, this is one of the main reasons why I like to go out from the office once in a while. When I go away, it's like a breather for me, it gives room for me to be just by myself. I mean, after I am done with my work, I love staying in my room doing nothing while I listen to soothing music or catching up with my reading and off course along the way I puff-puff . Sometimes, if time permits, right after Subuh prayer, I watch the sun rise while I wonder about stuff and most of the time I get lost in my own toughts. I guess piscean is a dreamer at heart:-). Am I right, Ina?

So that is why, when I go for outstation I would prefer to have my own room, because this is the only time for me to be by myself. You can call me individualistic but once in a while I need to be on my own because I value my individuality and I dont want to lose myself along the way. You know, the best part is, my other half understand my needs, he knows when to give me my space and I really appreciate that. I don't think many others half will do the same :-). Maraming salamat pok!

Having said that, it doesn't mean I don't enjoy others company but once in a while, I just need a breather/space or else I would go cuckoo and when I am cuckoo, I can assure you it's not a pleasant sight of me...

I'm still here

Just to let you all know that I'm still here, I've been wanting to update this blog but whenever I wanted to do it, something else came up. Well, so many things to tell but at this moment time is not on my side. Hopefully, tonight I can do some updating. Ohhhh! I miss my blog! Catch up with you later!

Ps. Go watch X-Men: Wolverine the Movie. He's soooooooooooo hot and sexy! Now I know why he is the sexiest man alive! You know what? The thoughts of him turn me on!Pssst....

Office sucks!

At this point of time, office sucks but I know I will rebounce back. Just watch me.

Marley & Me

I went to see Marley & Me this afternoon. At first when a close friend of mine said better keep a pack of tissue with me, I just laughed it off. Little did I know that the movie taught me some important points in life. You see, despite the dogs neuratic and unbearable characters, he stood up with the family from the beginning until the end.

No, I'm not going to give the spoiler here, because I want you to watch it yourself. It's a good movie because I learnt something there and I think others will too! "A true friend is someone who stood by you through thick and thin; simple fact but very few friends can do that". Grogan found that with Marley. I cried, it's just heart breaking.

Ps. Actually, the main reason I wanted to watch this movie is because I am a huge fan of Jennifer Anniston...sekali, memang syiok pun cerita dia. I am thinking of getting the book, it's based on true story, you know? Oh! Btw, I couldn't believe Jennifer Anniston is actually 40 years old!Checkout her hot bod! Look at her biceps!

Happy Birthday to Me!

Today I am 31 years old, Happy Birthday to Me! Normally, on my birthday I will take the day off, because I believe no one should work on his/her birthday. Traditionally, on my birthday I will pamper myself, just me spending time with myself, like I will go for facial, spa, manicure & pedicure or salon for my hair treatment and enjoy well-wishers from family and close friends:-) That was my tradition since yesteryears but this year it's different.

Today instead of pampering myself, I was busy preparing for a function and was busy running around since last week. Anyway, despite pressure and stress, the function turns out to be well, at least in my opinionlah. At first we were worried if the function didn't have gather enough crowd, luckily the hall was overflowed with peoples from entah mana-mana (Thank God!) and suddenly, all the full ministers came out of nowhere; eventhough earlier their office RSVP regret not attending.

Overall I am happy today altough I have to go work on my birthday because I managed to get through and let my first baby (1st event) sail through; it's not perfect yet there is so much to learn. Especially on patience and grace just like my immediate boss; that is something I have to learn. After this I am going to go to salon and wash my hair, then hopefull tonight my hubby will bring me out for good dinner, he better be! After all this hard work for the past weeks!hehe...

One last note, I am thankful I am still here today and I am surrounded by family and friends who cares for me. I enjoy my work; despite the pressure, stress and you know what? that makes it even more challenging! I love it! while I am here, I hope to learn as much as I can. Alhamdullilah, Allah s.w.t is Maha Berkuasa, I couldn't ask for more. I am thankful to Allah. You know what? I have the feeling this is going to be a great year for me! :-)

Popular questions...

Having been married for a mere one year, from time to time I get bombarded by soalan "Cepu Emas" from relatives and friends about this...

"Ada sudah?" Hmm...

"Belum lagi?" Hmm...

"Bila lagi?" Hmm...

"Napa belum ada lagi? Jangan tunggu lama-lama oh" Hmm...

"Mesti cepat-cepat, your biological clock is ticking!" Hmm...

All these five questions I can ignore or buat muka bodoh jer until one somebody said this to me,

"Takkanlah lepas setahun belum ada lagi, mesti you yang ada problem ni!"

Hello? who is he/she to say that to me? Gerammmm tau...Even if I ada problem conceiving, I don't think so it's any of his/her business! The funny part is, that he/she are not even close to me, they are just friends or distant relatives! Ayoyo! Fine, I can't escape from being bombarded by this type of questions but sometimes I wish they just stop asking me this sort of questions, because if it happens then it happens; I will definitely broadcast to everybody!

God knows how I wanted to be a mommy and give cute grandchildren for my parents but if it doesn't happen yet, God must have His own reason, right? Maybe He wants us to spend time being together or make ourself financially stable (hehe..credit card banyak lagi belum settle woi!) because once the lil one is here, it won't be the same anymore. So that's why, hubby and I just go with the flow...and so far we are happy on how things are:-) Shouldn't other people be happy for us too?

If only...

I am currently watching Ugly Betty session 2, I love this series because of it's very the dramatic and colourful characters. Well, if you dont know (I bet everybody knows!) what this series is all about then you better watch it! It's highly recommended if you need a good laugh or you just had a bad day.

Actually, the story is pretty simple. It's about a girl named Betty who works in a cruel media industry but somehow her kindness and "lurus bendul" helped her to survive the harsh world. Despite attempts by her officemates to sabotage her, somehow she managed to manouver the situation (in her own way) and in the end saved her clueless boss, Daniel Meade.

So you see, apart from the above descriptions of this series, there is another reason why I loveeeee this series. He is one of the reasons,

Eventhough most of the times he doesn't know what he is doing in the office, but the moment he look at Betty with his innocent blue eyes and said "Betty, you have to help me". My heart just melt and I wish I was the one who can save him! Dramatic arent I? Still, if only I have a boss like him...

Don't worry, this obsession is only temporary! Until I find another good series worth watching!

Thankful Tuesday

Today is thankful Tuesday. I am thankful today because,

1. I have a great job, not everybody get the chance to work in this environment.

2.I have my own car to go to work. Well, although it's not a new car but still it's my own car. I can't imagine if I have to go to work by bus. Nothing against going to work by bus, but with me in my 30s I dont have the energy (fyi, 5 years ago when I was in KL I go to work by feeder bus and lrt) like I used too!

3. I have a very understanding and supportive parents. I know I can turn to them whenever I need their advise, not everybody get to talk to their parents like they talk to a friend.Oh, I love them to bits!

Alhamdullilah, I am thankful to God.

Happy Valentine's Day

Yes, it's hari kekasih but my hubby and I dont really celebrate this day because we find it overrated. Everything is marked up and comercialized, so what's the point blowing your pockets just for the sake of Valentine's Day? Everyday pun Valentine's Day what? Haha...so you know what we did? We had brunch at Pit's Corner. Walaupun teda candle light or romantic ambiance...chicken chopnya nyaman sekali! Now, I am in my room preparing for tutorials with OUM tomorrow. Have a Happy Valentine's Day you'all!:-)

Tada! Finally I have my very own public blog!

Actually I've been wanting to have a public blog since early this year because, "sampai bilalah I want to stalk on other peoples blog and only read about their stories?" I think it's time for me to share my stories too! But the problem is, I dont know what my blog's url should be, because I want my blog's url to be simple just like me. Macam-macam nama I brainstormed, Rina my high school buddy and Tasha my little sister dua-dua jadi mangsa. Macam-macam ideas they gave me, among top two names are...

fabulousfarrah.blogspot.com - this one sounds cool, but on a second thought it doesn't reflect me. You know, I am no Kimora in Fablane, my life is simple. So, I have to let this go.

fattyliciousfarrah.blogspot.com - my sister gave this url, I like it because it sounds catchy but on a second thought I dont want to be fat forever? Hehe...so, I have to let this go.

But after cracking my heads over names then out of nowhere, while browsing for gossips (you knowlah me very the papparazi@ aunty kepoh) I saw a website ohbulan.com. Then voila! I came up with ohfarrah[dot]blogspot[dot]com. Simple, easy to remember and that's me!

So welcome everybody to Farrah in Wonderland...happy reading!