I must admit that "I'm sorry" is not a popular vocabulary in my dictionary. Due to my stubborness or ketubalan it's so difficult to say "I'm sorry" even tough at times I knew that I was wrong but today, I said the dreadful phrase "I'm sorry" to somebody dear to me after a heated argument. Well actually, I wouldn't conclude it as a heated argument but let's just dramatize the whole situation given at that time I was on my first day of the month where Auntie Rose paid a visit (peeps, that's one of the beauty of being a lady because you can always blame it on your imbalanced hormones when that time of the month arrives). :-)
It all started with a phone call from a dear friend, he was informing me that my big boss wanted me to assist him for one dinner event. I remembered I was upset when he said that he knows that I don't work during weekend and it was my boss who asked me to work for that particular dinner not him. I terus jadi emo masa tu. What upset me more was, I was already planning to assist him because I knew he needed any extra help he could get. In fact I already rescheduled my Saturday night appointment so I can help him with the event.
Along the way, I don't know what happened, we ended yelling at each other. The next thing I know, he hung up the phone just like that. Imagine my temper at that time, off course berderau jugalah darahkan!
After my temper subsided, I made the three attempts to call him back because I just want to settle all this mess or whatever you may call it. My phone calls were ignored. Maybe he was still pissed, ok fine. Finally, when I managed to talk to him, I told him "I'm sorry" and I really meant it. At that time, I was already calm so I explained to him gently what was my intention (niat sebenar - nawaitu) in the first place. After that, he told his side of the story, now I know why he was pissed earlier. I should have listened instead of just hearing. Well, temper flares in any upcoming event, right?
What amazes me was even though it's so difficult for me to say the phrase "I'm sorry" because I feel that I didn't do anything wrong but I did it and you know what? I am relieved that I made the first move to say "I'm sorry". The reason was simple, I just don't want to fight and I don't want to let all these negative vibes get into me.
You know what? most importantly, I said I am sorry because he is a dear friend of mine. I treasure our friendship. If he is reading this (which I doubt so), I hope he knows how I value our friendship. Kalau orang lain jangan haraplah I would make the first step! I bet those who knows me very well must be suprised with this entry knowing that I can be quiet self-centered.
At the end of the day, it doesn't matter who is right or who is wrong. To me what matter most is, who take the first step to make things better, right peeps?
It all started with a phone call from a dear friend, he was informing me that my big boss wanted me to assist him for one dinner event. I remembered I was upset when he said that he knows that I don't work during weekend and it was my boss who asked me to work for that particular dinner not him. I terus jadi emo masa tu. What upset me more was, I was already planning to assist him because I knew he needed any extra help he could get. In fact I already rescheduled my Saturday night appointment so I can help him with the event.
Along the way, I don't know what happened, we ended yelling at each other. The next thing I know, he hung up the phone just like that. Imagine my temper at that time, off course berderau jugalah darahkan!
After my temper subsided, I made the three attempts to call him back because I just want to settle all this mess or whatever you may call it. My phone calls were ignored. Maybe he was still pissed, ok fine. Finally, when I managed to talk to him, I told him "I'm sorry" and I really meant it. At that time, I was already calm so I explained to him gently what was my intention (niat sebenar - nawaitu) in the first place. After that, he told his side of the story, now I know why he was pissed earlier. I should have listened instead of just hearing. Well, temper flares in any upcoming event, right?
What amazes me was even though it's so difficult for me to say the phrase "I'm sorry" because I feel that I didn't do anything wrong but I did it and you know what? I am relieved that I made the first move to say "I'm sorry". The reason was simple, I just don't want to fight and I don't want to let all these negative vibes get into me.
You know what? most importantly, I said I am sorry because he is a dear friend of mine. I treasure our friendship. If he is reading this (which I doubt so), I hope he knows how I value our friendship. Kalau orang lain jangan haraplah I would make the first step! I bet those who knows me very well must be suprised with this entry knowing that I can be quiet self-centered.
At the end of the day, it doesn't matter who is right or who is wrong. To me what matter most is, who take the first step to make things better, right peeps?
Bravo pocet!!
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