My daddy, my hero

It's a backdated post but I know it's never to late to tell the whole world that I love my daddy so much! From time to time, you get questions like this, "Which one are you closer with, your mum or you dad?" If people ask me this, I would tell them both; actually off course I am closer to my mum in a sense that I can talk to her about anything and everything but when it comes to seeking opinion or advise, I would definitely talk to my dad.

You see, if I told my friends that my parents are very open and understanding, they wouldn't understand...some would just roll their eyes and you can see the shock written all over on their face! Haha...when I said they being open, I mean very open ok? Let's not go further, those friends who knows my parents...I can imagine them nodding their heads when they read this entry.Haha!

I can list 1001 reasons on why my dad is my hero. I look up on him. I seek advise from him. I listen to what he got to say and knowing my stubbornest...the moment my dad slow talk to me terus I follow everything that he said. Off course, he spent a lot on me...hehehe, you know raising a daughter like me can be very expensive investment! And, I have yet to show positive return invesment! Haha...

A friend once told me that, once you are married you no longer need to ask permission from you father instead it's your hubby that you need to get clearance. I beg to differ, even now that I am married, I still think my dad's words are important, I can't help it. He's my hero, nobody can't beat that. After all that he's done to me, he raised me up to become what I am today. Thankfully, I turn out to be fine (wink-wink) . I am so proud to be have a father like him. Up to today, he's always there for me. Looking back...I still remember...

When I had my first accident in Tawau back in 1995. I called him. He was the one who settled everything for me,

When I had a miserable time with my ex-boss in KL back in 2002. I turned to him. It was him who gave me a new perspective,

When I went for my interview for my current post, It was him who coached me,

When my car insurance expired, change my tyre botak, fixed my car, paid my car installments. He covered everything for me eventhough I was already earning my own income!

When I go for my mini get away or vacations, he sponsored my trip and off course bagi duit lagi! Itu sudah kerja tu! Betul-betul spoilt!

You will be suprised, I can be very sensitive and emotional when it comes to my dad. In fact bergenang sudah mataku thinking about my dad, I can feel my teardrops falling while I'm typing this entry. I can't imagine if he's not around anymore. I don't know what will I do without him. I just hope that, Allah s.w.t panjangkan umur my dad so that I will be able to give back what he has given to me all these years, well at least some part of it. I hope when have enough rezeki, then I can send him to perform his Haj. Amin. Insya'Allah.

Yes, I am now someone's wifey but I am always my dad's daughter. I love you dad, very very much!Muahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Instead of getting a pat in the back, you get screwed!

Sometimes when you work hard and put so much effort into making an event a major success (to say the least, everything in order) The feeling of an achievement shattered into pieces just because of one bloody f**king phone call from an old mother f**ker. Mind my language, I'm bloody f**king pissed.

Then again, why should I be pissed, after all she is mentally handicapped (dulu, kini dan selamanya - credit UMNO baru)!

Deep down, I feel underappreciated and miserable. Fullstop. There must be a way to deal with this old mother f**ker.

Kemesraan

Suatu hari Dikala kita duduk ditepi pantai

Dan memandang ombak dilautan yang kian menepi

Burung camar terbang bermain diderunya air

Suara alam ini hangatkan jiwa kita

Sementara sinar surya perlahan mulai tenggelam

Suara gitarmu mengalunkan melodi tentang cinta

Ada hati membara erat bersatu

Getar seluruh jiwa tercurah saat itu

Kemesraan ini janganlah cepat berlalu

Kemesraan ini ingin kukenang selalu

Hatiku damai...jiwaku tentram disampingmu

Hatiku damai...jiwa ku tentram bersamamu

Last night I attended a kenduri doa selamat, so normally during kenduri we get to see friends and family, recites prayers and tahlil together. The part where reciting prayers and tahlil are the part that I like most because when we said our prayers, I can feel that Allah s.w.t is listening to us and all you can feel is peace, nothing else matters. Another part that I like is, makan time where food is everywhere. Lauk pauk jak mo 10 macam, lain lagi dessert, kuih-muih, kek, coffee and tea, air bandung and fruits...apa ngak kenyang macam ular sawa!

What I've just described is how a normal kenduri affairs are carried out but last night the host invited a group of anak yatim from Rumah Anak Yatim Islam Tawau. They came in to join us for the feast, ramai betul and meriah sangat! So, after the feast they performed few songs for us siap accompanied with keyboard organ lagi (please correct me if I'm wrong, ngamkah tu namanya?). Syioklah tengok dorang nyanyi walaupun ada sengau sikit and sumbang but that is besides the point. Then they sang their last song, which was "Kemesraan" made popular by Broery Romantika. Terus I rasa sangat sayu especially part chorus, "kemesraan ini janganlah cepatlah berlalu..." I felt like my heart is crying because knowing that we are so lucky to have our parents with us to see us grow up to become what we are today. You see, they were jovial and happy despite hadn't had the chance to experience parents' TLC.

Which makes me wonder, sometimes we take things for granted, thinking that our loved ones will always be there for us...but what if one day they are gone? I can't imagine how I am going live without my parents... God knows. I just hope, Allah s.w.t panjangkan umur mereka so I have the chance to give something back to them. Amin. No, it's not just money (macamana juga I want to return their endless investments with my reckless spending? wink-wink). Actually, it's the quality time that we spend with our parents, itu yang mahal tu...and off course TLC goes a long way...hey, did you tell your parents that you love them today? Did you ever say thank you to them? Hmm...better go and tell them (not through blog, fb or sms ya?) in person.

Toy soldiers

Pernah dengarkah lagu "Toy Soldiers"? I think this song was popular during my time in high school...anyway, you must be wondering why did I blog about this song. Right now in the office, I betul-betul rasa yang macam toy soldier sebab sekarang kami ada komando baru...:-) If you think I am stressed out because of this so called new commando in command, actually on the contrary I'm not. In fact, I find it funny or shall I said hilarious...luckily I have other neighbours@another toy soldiers yang gila-gila juga, so I think I'll do just fine!