Wednesday, July 22, 2009

For a change...

Earlier on, I chose black as my blog's background because I thought I wanted to write something deep and mysterious but lately I feel that black is to heavy for me...macam terlampau mysterious pulak. So, for a change I use white because at this moment I am feeling white and to me white represent transparency...

P/s : It's past 1 am and I still can't sleep, maybe the Cafe Latte that I had at Coffee Bean was too strong for me...I know I have to do some write up for office but I am so not in the mood...I should put procrastinating in my dictionary now. Like the say, old habit dies hard! haha!

Friday, July 17, 2009

Tuhan lebih sayangkan Yen (30 Julai 1977 - 17 Julai 2009)

Innalila hiwainalila hirojiun.

I received an sms from As this morning, she told me that a dear friend of mine, Yenilia Badrin has passed away this morning. No wonderlah I've been having strange feeling this week...Berdebar-berdebar...I rasa sangat terkilan sebab I didn't get to see her, bila balik Tawau mesti ngak sempat jumpa arwah. Rasa menyesal betul, lebih menyesal lagi sebab I didn't know she was sick.

If only I get to see her before she left. If only...

I pray that her family diberikan kekuatan untuk menghadapi ujian dari Allah S.W.T. Amin.

Al-Fatihah. Semoga rohnya dirahmati Allah S.W.T. Amin.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Have you ever...?

Teruskanlah - Agnes Monica

Pernahkah kau bicara tapi tak didengar

Tak dianggap sama sekali

Pernahkah kau tak salah tapi disalahkan

Tak diberi kesempatan

reff:

Kuhidup dengan siapa ku tak tahu kau siapa

Kau kekasih ku tapi orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja

teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku aku patung bagimu

Cinta bukan kebutuhanmu

back to reff

Kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu...

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

He has gone to another world


Remembering Michael Jackson
29 August 1958 - 25 June 2009

I couldn't believe that Michael Jackson has left us until I watched his Memorial Service on Astro.
Reality finally sink in, that he is gone forever.
There was only one Michael Jackson and he has left us.
There we lost another amazing talent.
I wonder, what is his soul are doing right now? Moonwalking?
Perhaps, for the first time he can walk freely and finally he is allowed to be left alone;
no more papparazi chasing a scope out of his life.
I hope he finds peace in his new world.
May his soul rest in peace. Amin.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

He's a hottie!


I went to see Transformers : Revenge of the fallen. Kalau lelaki semua terpegun tengok how sexy and hot Megan Fox is, then for us ladies...at least I can speak for myself, I terpegun tengok Josh Duhamel...tanpa kelip mata, ok? He's a hottie...sexy oooh! His body...his look...wah, I'm drooling already! Hahaha...In fact, I noticed him since previous Transformers...

So ladies, sepa yang belum tengok Transformers...go go go watch! Cuma satu jak pesanan I, ada spoiler sikit...sebab ramai parents bawa their kids so tahan-tahan jaklah kalau tiba-tiba sampai scene bagus tiba-tiba ada baby merengek non-stop. That's what happened to us last night. Aiyayah!

Apparently, babies macam tau-tau jak tu scene bagus. Mau jak I marah, but then again maybe teda orang jaga babynya dirumahkan? Iyalah parents pun mo tengok wayang juga. Who knows in the future I pulak bawa my newborn baby p tengok wayang?:-)

Friday, July 3, 2009

I felt so alone


Absence makes the heart grow fonder...

After quite sometimes working, to be exact, the last time I took leave was in March! I finally managed to take three (3) days off. Those three days were fantastic! I had a great time recuperating (well, at least in my context) at home doing nothing and catching up with friends that I've abandoned for quite sometimes. Sorry mate, I've been extremely busy.

So today, I am back in the office with lots of recharged energy and full of positive anticipations. Instead, I felt strange today, for the first time I felt so alone despite the office is full with people. I can hear them sharing light moments and gossiping here and there after all it's Friday already. Nobody has the mood to work...everybody was already looking forward to weekend. And yet I felt so alone. My mind keeps wondering how do you know who's your friend? Can you say your officemate is your friend? Or they just have to get along with you because you work together?

At least for me, since we are colleagues, we have to put our differences aside and get things done, right? We are professionals at work. Even if you don't like this particular person, you still have to work together right? At the end of the day, even if you work together doesn't mean you have to friends but at least being civil to each other won't hurt.

Some people define colleagues as their friends. But to me, to be a friend it takes more than that. A true friend is someone you trust. A true friend hear you out. A true friend will be there for you. A true friend stands together with you, although they know sometimes you are not right . True friends protect each other. The list goes on, my question is, can you find a friend in your office? I FIND IT DIFFICULT. Maybe because it's hard for me to open up and trust people, that's just me.

Sometime I feel that the office are full of hypocrites. They say nice things in front of you but it's different story altogether when you are not around. Given choice, I would rather deal outright hostility rather than deal with sugar coated lies. Call me harsh, but you just know when you spotted a faker! It's all written on their face and body language never lies!

Then again, why should I make my mind miserable over things that are beyond my control? They are the one with problems, not me. I keep on telling myself that I must be true to myself because I am who I am. Then again, it's those things in life that you have no control over to begin with, that tends to annoy, tends to irritate the hell out of you! Still, I have to deal with them. I just hope over time things change for the better. Hmmm....nope, some people are just born bad genes. Opps! There I go again...

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

I'm still here

Just a note to tell you all that I'm still here, so many things to blog about but time is not my side. Sigh.
On another note, macamlah others wonder what happened to me?
Hehehe...perasan pulak yours truly, as if she's celebrity blogger! Haha...will update my blog soon:-)
Have a beautiful day! Cheers!